posted by: audra
i’m pretty sure it is. not that anything really bad has happened. yet. except that i raked the shit out of my patent leather heel on a curb today. i’m still feeling out of sorts, nothing is pleasing me at the moment, & i have a headache. i was also blessed with my period this week, to compliment my sickness. awesome. i have a sick little period story to share as well, but i’ll spare you that for now. hint: sticky thighs (in a bad way!).
sigh…it’s actually not that bad. i look awful though, really awful! apparently not wearing makeup for 2 days will make me breakout. that was news to me, too, kids! or maybe it was just from wearing my eye-shade for 48 hours straight. don’t fret — i washed that night-cream caked shit last night.
something else weird has happened to me this week…aside from the no-drinking/smoking thing: i still haven’t been eating. believe it. last night the only thing that sounded halfway decent for dinner was some mac & cheese. not only did i not finish it, i barely had half of it. and that was a struggle. and then for my morning breaks, i always have 2 low-fat babybel cheeses. today was like pulling teeth just trying to get one down! maybe it’s because i can’t taste anything? what would happen if i tried a hot dog? would that turn on me too? oh god…
but that’s not such a bad thing! if i can keep this up, & perhaps do a little pilates here & there, too…i’m well on my way to getting the debbie-harry-circa-1976 body i’ve been dreaming of. we’ll see…
in other news, over the weekend — i believe sunday evening — we finally watched the go-getter. with my delicious boy-treat lou pucci. it was….alright. it was mostly boring, actually. the soundtrack was cool though; lots of m. ward, elliott smith, black keys, animal collective… m. ward did the soundtrack, so naturally he would shove himself in there as often as he could . in a good way, though. the cinematography was amazing…but it seemed to me they spent more time on that than the actual content. not a film i would recommend. unless you like that sort of thing.
speaking of which! have you all seen nick & norah’s infinite playlist yet? oh god. i was so excited for it…not so excited i went to the theater, but excited nonetheless. well, we watched it this weekend as well. retarded! i really found it profoundly dumb & irritating. where was the infinite playlist? i thought maybe they would make each other mixtapes & drive around all night listening to them? no. the boy makes a few compilations for his ex-girlfriend at the beginning of the film & she throws them away in the trash bin. grubby little norah thinks he’s the best mix-maker ever, so she digs them out & listens to them. there’s a really horrific part in the film that i just couldn’t handle: norah’s dumb drunk friend is a gum-chewer. she’s super drunk — in the train station i think — throws up in a bathroom stall & out goes her gum. and her phone. she drops her gum & phone in the vomited-in-toilet. of course she goes in after both! indeed her phone still works (?!) and declares the gum still chewable. fucking sick! that’s not funny. nor necessary to the plot. and this movie just reinforced my belief that michael cera is repulsive & kat dennings is gross & stupid.
and there you have it. i’m just feeling sorry for myself today. now i feel better! thank you for listening! i love you.